Spinal Implant

Well on this past Monday I had a "spinal implant device" put into my neck (spine) under the skin. I guess the easiest way to describe what this does is to say that it sends out a stimulus like a vibration that interrupts that pain fibers when they fire. Needless to say, after five years of trying different procedures and three failed surgeries, I was not optimistic. However, lets just say the Lord has answered so many prayers from so many diferent people this week. I normally take a scheduled pain medicine three times a day plus an "as needed" med throughout the day. This week I have only taken a total of 5 extra pain pills. That's about what I would take in a day.
The only bad thing about this implant device is that it is a temporary device. Meaning, regardless of how much I love it and need it, they will remove it on Monday. Its not a big deal to have it removed, its basically the size of an epidural catheter. They will just pull it out.
Right now I have a big battery pack that is attached to a cord that is coming out of my spine. The permanant one inserts the battery under the skin just at the very top of my bum, right under my tatoo. (Just kidding, mom!)
When I go in on Monday I will get to decide whether or not I want a permanant device (YES!) and when I want it (A.S.A.P.).
So, thank you to everyone who has been praying for me. Your prayers have been heard and answered in a mighty way.

Our God is good. My kids have asked me many times why God "hasn't answered" their prayers for healing of my neck. I have tried to tell them that just because we don't see the answer doesn't mean He hasn't answered. I don't know why I have had to deal with over five years of chronic pain. I'm not sure why none of the surgeries I have had have helped. However, there is one thing that I know that I know that I know. God is good.
There is a song that has basically sustained me at different times during all of my medical nightmares. It is "Trust His Heart" by Babbie Mason. Here are the lyrics.

Trust His Heart
by Babbie Mason

All things work for our good
Though sometimes we don't see how they could
Struggles that break our hearts in two
sometimes blind us to the truth
Our Father knows what's best for us
His ways are not our own
So when your pathway grows dim
when you just don't see Him
Remember you're never alone

Chorus:
God is too wise to be mistaken
God is too good to be unkind
So when you don't understand
When you don't see His plan
When you can't trace His hand
Trust His heart

He sees the master plan
and He holds out future in His hand
So don't lives as those who have no hope
For our hope is found in Him
We see the present clearly
But He sees the first and the last
And like a tapestry
He's weaving you and me
To someday be just like Him

God is too wise to be mistaken
God is too good to be unkind
So when you don't understand
When you don't see His plan
when you can't trace His hand
trust His heart
He alone is faithful and true
He alone knows what's best for you

When you don't understand
When you don't see His plan
When you can't trace His hand
Trust His heart.



Enough said.